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maozedongisnotcool:

It’s sort of weird when you’re at the point in your depression when you sort of observe yourself grow increasingly more self-conscious from excessive introspection and almost complete social withdrawal. Your reactions to people you don’t know but talk to almost feel rehearsed, like you know it’s theater because you’ll return right back to your little niche in the back of your mind as soon as the exchange is over and they won’t think of you again.

I dunno if that’s just me.　

i hate you

can we be friends

i cannot believe how much i unintentionally intimidate people with what are really my own insecurities

i just cannot believe it.

svartdod:

I still feel bad and depersonalized always and ?? I’m 20 and still think I’m going to one day be my “real” self when this is actually all there is I’m a dissociated and hollowed shell thing and I carefully control every interaction I have with another person I don’t hate my body becaus of how it looks or whatever I just feel trapped in and disconnected from it
…

22 and still feel the same

what is my life

i have arrived back from sleeping over my boss’s house and being forced to interact with strangers and wealthy and/or intelligent people for over 24 hrs, said maybe a total of 20 words during both days combined, not including the “thank you”s and “hello”s and “goodbyes” 

i came back home and all i could do was go straight to my room and sob nonstop for an hour

see what happens when an introvert is abducted from her habitat and comfort zone

this is not normal

anticapitalist:

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